For those of you that d
on't know. I had Placenta Previa with Caden. God-thankfully I had a great outcome. He was born via c-section 4 weeks early and weighed in at 6ibs & 9oz and was 191/2 inches long. HEALTHY BOY!!!!!!! Lungs, eyes, hearing, everything checked out as if he was on time. (THANK YOU LORD FOR MY HEALTHY BOY!) When I think about it, there are so many emotions that go with being pregnant. My Mom, & sister both had great pregnancies and deliveries, why am I the exception. Bed rest with both Ellie and Caden, odd things with both end of pregnancies. When I think about having another one, I get excited, and think, "OH! another baby. How fun and exciting." and it is. I wouldn't take anything back. But then, the what if's. and I don't think I would be able to handle another what if pregnancy. People tell me t
o wait a couple more years and then try (1st off there is no try, its do for E & I). But then I say *STARTING OVER* ummm, no thank you. Am I crazy or something... hahaha
so... yes, I told E that I think I am done last night. First time I have admitted it out loud, and now I am saying it on here.
I believe I am done.
Is it hard for everyone to say that? If I say it, then I have to mean it, and if I mean it, then I have to do it and if I do it, then there is NOO going back. and thats the hard part about it.
Growing up I always wanted a BIG family- 11 kids. Well, 11 kids was out of the question, so I said 7, but then thought, 4 would be great- nice even number. Now 2- really?!!?! so yes, I think 2 is great. I like my small family and E likes kn
owing we are done. So IF I still feel this way by the beginning of 2010 it is off to the clinic for me :)
ok- so here are a couple pic. of my lovely kids :)
Happy ending right!!!
Ellie & Eric swimming and shooting me & papa Steve with water...
Caden being Caden
Smiling with his tongue hanging out :)
4 comments:
It has been hard for me as well to say for sure no more and I do not have the medical worries that you have had. You have a great family and are very blessed. I will pray for comfort for you Casey.
Thank you Becky. I am glad I am not the only one. Every day I get use to the idea of being *done*, but its those really sweet days that I want one more and if I have one more then we will end up having two more. BUT then its that cycle, I think *oh I could do this. We would be good. And then I REMEMBER and thats the end of that* But thank you, Becky.
You have 2 precious children and no matter what struggles you face know that those are the biggest blessings God could have ever provided. Now for the bummer flip side. I too was where you were some 4-5 years ago but am now regretting that decision more and more every day. Sometimes in life we get so caught up in the worries and stresses that we forget to stop in the moment and cast all those worries over to him. Children are a blessing from the Lord and maybe this is a moment where you must decide where your trust and hope lies. Just my take on the situation and I too advise not to make too hasty a decision. That's just from one mom of 2 to another. Love you guys!
Casey, this is not a decision that you have to make right now. Kevin and I have talked to about being done but we are not making anything permanent until we have prayed and seriously searched our hearts. Your babies are still young! Enjoy them in their youth and all of the joy that they bring. In however many years you decide if you want another one, I am sure you will not have a problem getting pregnant (we are Rhineheimer's after all!)
On the medical side, I can somewhat relate. Having #2 for us meant having to face all of the complications that seem to happen in my deliveries. We had to honestly ask ourselves if we could handle any problems that may arise in the delivery of Jackson if we went the "natural" route and the answer was no. We could care less how they get here, only that they do and that both mommy and baby are healthy.
No pregnancies are the same. Who knows, if you have another, you will be in a completely different place in your life and perhaps your body will be better equipped (for lack of a better term).
Ok, sorry for the novel. Summed up; you don't have to make this decision now. For now, you have 2 beauties that you and Eric can enjoy.
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