SET ME FREE

Last night I started the *There & Then and Here & Now, Revelation study with Beth Moore.* I was amazed and just blown away by the first lesson. If you have not sign up for this study, please find someone teaching it and study it.

One thing we talked about it that I have been dealing with is bondage. Not bondage like we all think of today as in the 3 little word that starts with S and ends in X and has an E in the middle. haha But bondage of something that is not letting you be FREE. Free of guilt, free of him (noticed I used the little *h*). Nor bondage of sin, although we all fall short and sin. But something that I have not been able to *LET GO OF* that has constantly been a slap in my face for the last several months.

Beth Moore says *Bondage does not hold us, but yet we hold on to it.* *We have a choice to let it go and be FREE, to have that FREEDOM* So why do we hold on it? More importantly, why am I holding on it?

So I have to make that choice. and trust me, I have made that choice to let it go. And here I thought it hasn't let go of me... silly me. I guess I haven't truly let it go or is that because its been a constant in my life....

But as I struggle with this, I am reminded of the one that LOVES me. I am told to *forgive and move on* Because if I can't forgive then how can He forgive me of my sins. and that I WANT from Him. I want to be forgiven, I want to hear *Job well done, my faithful servant*.

But as I struggle with this, I am grateful for what He has done for me, my family, my loved ones. I have healthy children. so makes my struggle look like a little peddle compared to these families that are battelling cancer.

I have a few girls and boys that I follow on TWEET and Caring Bridge. Some of which are doing great and other that have WON THEIR ANGEL WINGS.

You know life is short, life is hard, life is life and sometimes its a hard journey/road to travel on. So why make it harder for you or others? Why do we do that to ourselves or our loved ones knowing its short, knowing it will hurt them. Why???

So here I am making MY choice, my choice to let you, my bondage, go.

I pray that God will guide me through this journey and give me the strength and knowledge and hold me on this journey. I pray for me that it wont be a journey but a fast trip. I pray, I cry out to You on behalf of the families that are dealing with CANCER- what a nasty word to even say. Wish it were a bad word and one we couldn't say in our home. Wouldn't that be nice. I hate cancer, and what it does to everyone- its a ripple effect- it hurts everyone.

So what's your bondage, and why have you not chosen HIM who gives YOU/us FREEDOM?!?!